you..The warmth of her hands
against yours.
Holding
the broken pieces of you
together.The smile on her face as she
breaks the silence.
Relaxing
the doubts in your
mind.The sound of her voice, calms your
fragile self.
Whispering
the ugly words
made beautiful.The look in your eyes
as you realize.
This is goodbye.
I don't really know what to say. I've been sitting here for the last twenty minutes trying to write something meaningful. Attempting to just get some thoughts out to... clear my mind, but I honestly don't know what to say. I don't know what to tell you. I mean, I want to tell you.... how I feel, but I don't even know how I feel...
I'm afraid.
The meeting was utter shit today. Imports@UCI is going downhill and I'm just side stepping out of the way, watching it fall. I'm in no emotional or mental condition to do anything. Oh, I want to, I'm just in no position to. It seems my passion has reduced significantly and is now divided among many different things. The meetings have been progressively getting worse and "THE OC" being on Thursdays, at 8PM doesn't really help much either. I'm sitting back, watching. Relaxed, but not relaxed. Chilling, but not chilling. I want to do something, but once the ball starts rolling theres little I can do.
We went to Albert Taco's after the meeting. A far drive in a direction I didn't want to go. Its weird how life imitates life. I didn't feel like being there, but I felt obligated at the same time. I want to just take a break from everything. I want to let everything go and head toward a different direction, but its too hard. I have too many attachments to too many things. You're one of them.
The way back was the best part of the whole night. Not because I was driving away, but the fact that all the lanes of the 5 north were blocked. I waited an hour just to reach the scene and overall it took me almost 2 hours to get home... and only till I got home to check sigalert.com did I find out...
I guess there was an accident with two passenger cars and 3 big rigs. All the lanes were blocked off. It happened at 9:30 and at 10:00 they sent message to a coroner to show up on scene. There was a convertible and a BMW 325 involved. I saw the BMW and it was crushed in the front, facing the wrong direction.
Coroner Request the Best Access 10:42 PM
Best Access off at LA Paz Go to the East to North On Ramp // Hopefully Ofcr Will Allow Them to Get There
I don't know how to feel.