I'm physically and mentally drained. I just woke up from a 3 or 4 hour nap at the Sciene Library. I haven't really been in the mood to think, work, or put any effort into anything I've been doing recently. I don't really know whats up anymore. I almost feel like I'm wasting away, just going through the motions of life, following the routines and not breaking free and doing what I really want. I'm afraid that if I do something unplanned everything will begin to crumble.
I don't know what to do anymore. I'm a lot better at telling people what I think they should do, but I suck when it comes around to making decisions and choices for myself. I get too caught up in the situation, unable to take a step back and analyze my own problems. I want to do something but I don't know what to do. I want to say something, but I don't know what to say. So I'm just waiting. I want to see her again...
I think my main problem is that I haven't been in a relationship for quite a long time, let alone a serious relationship. Its kind of like when you play a video game and then stop for a long time, like Starcraft, everything is new to you again when you pick it up after a while. Thats how it is. When/if I do end up getting into a relationship in college, its going to be like having a girlfriend for the first time all over again.. lol -_-;;
On the other hand, I'm still really rusty when it comes to Starcraft. I don't really play at home, but when I'm over at John's and we LAN it up, I find myself losing quite a bit. 
Its cool though. I don't think I have the time to play at home, so we'll just leave that where it is.
I got my Masta Ace album yesterday and listened to it on the car ride to school today and while I was napping, up until both sets of batteries I brought with me died out. Its better than em's album, but it isn't really that great. Some of the tracks were pretty good, but I'm really feeling the album by Nas thats coming out on November 30th. A lot of people on the forums were kind of saying that Masta Ace's album is the best hip hop album of '04.. so... They're wrong. LOL 