Well, not really. If you were going to measure the week, it'd come out to the same days, hours, seconds. It was a long and stressful period of the month, I guess. I'm glad its over. I've never been one to update consistently on this site for a while because my life is.. what do you call it... bland. Theres never a lot to talk about, so I spread it out over a long period of time to keep you all excited.
Anyway... I took 3 midterms last week and then I studied this week for Physics, or well, I didn't study for Physics this week. I don't know if anyone knows it or not, but my first two quarters at UCI summed up my entire life.. wasted potential. I don't even know what my GPA is right now, nor do I care to know the specifics of the matter. The leading number is enough to make my heart sink like the Titanic. Its around 2.03. Thats only 3/100 of a point away from academic probation...
Its easy to make excuses for my shortcomings, but hard to explain them. I don't work anymore. I only took 32 units in the last 2 quarters. I have no responsibilities other than school. I have no social life. Yet, with all my free time.. I still managed to slack off and find myself in the pit. The feeling of accomplishment when coming back from an F on the first midterm of the quarter in all of my classes wears away quickly and old habits don't die so easily. Its been a tough quarter for me to say the least. I still haven't spoken with my academic advisor about planning my course of study because I'm afraid of what she'll think of me. This kid who slacked off big time and takes education for granted. Yeah, right. Thats me...
So I was planning on the comeback. I'm not really sure if this is what I want to do.. I mean, be a good student or whatever or if I'm just trying to prove to myself that if I put in the effort that I can reach full potential. I'm taking 4 classes this quarter, which is on par with what everyone else is doing. Everyone tells me not to compare myself with other people and just to do what I'm comfortable with, but my worst quarter was the last.. where I only completed 15 units. I'm not going to make excuses.. Like I said, its hard to explain them because there is no explaination.. I'm a fucking slacker.
Anyway...... So the last two weeks have been a proving ground for me. I've never been the best student. I'm never going to be the best student. I probably won't score above the curve consistently, but I can try. I took Chemistry, Econ, and Calculus midterms last week and the results came in. I was overjoyed, but at the same time I was stressed about Physics, a class that I haven't done too well in over the last two quarters. But you want to be an engineer, Phi, what the hell are you doing? Yeah.. but I'm going to be an Environmental Engineer. More bio, more chem, less physics.
Anyway :drumroll:.. the results:
Chemistry: 13/19. Mean was an 11.40. Grade: B. This might not look so great considering I made two stupid mistakes that would have gotten me a score of 16/19 had I got the points, coupled with the fact that he is replacing the lower midterm (we have two) with the highest midterm score you get... ... Its a bit disappointing, BUT I did get C-'s in both Chem courses in the last two quarters. So things are looking up?
Math 2D: 84/85. Mean was 69.28. Wow. If theres one class I've been doing decently in, its Calculus. My first quarter I got a D on my first midterm, but got As on the 2nd and final to end up with a B+. I settled for a B- last quarter because my math professor didn't have the best spoken English, but this will be the closest I will ever get to breaking the curve (my college goal). What is even more awesome is my one point defecit came to a very stupid mistake. I read the problem incorrectly. The class is getting tougher though, so we'll see whats up.
Econ 20C: 27.5/30. Mean was 24.4. Grade: B+. I got a 90%, it gets rounded down to a B+. Tough. I'll take it.
Then theres Physics. I don't even know about Physics. I hate Physics. I should've tried harder for Physics. I'm going to fail.
Whatever. Two weeks of testing down. 10 day break, then more midterms. I love the quarter system.
Things are looking up.